And I am not sure how I feel about it.
I am turning forty, which as I have pointed out to several people, is like, as old as my parents. In a lot of ways it feels okay to be forty. After all, I have had a pretty good career (with a few economy related bumps), I am married, own a house, and have kids. I worry about money and stuff all the time.
These are all things you should be doing when you are forty. So that sort of makes it okay. I would feel weird if I was younger than forty and did all those things, just like I would feel wierd if I was forty and had not done them.
At the same time, I don't feel very old. I still like to go out, and I still like the same kinds of book and movies. I don't play videogames as much anymore, but that's related more to not being that interested in what's on the market than anything else. If another good Ultima game came out I would totally take a week of vacation to play it.
I still refuse to take everything very seriously, unless it's something that needs to be taken seriously.
Maybe my problem is that as times have changed, what old has changed. Maybe forty is not really that old anymore. I guess I should start worrying about 50 then, I mean, that's REALLY old. Older than my parents probably are.